I’m beginning to feel like a freak. Well, my husband says I’m not normal. I know I’m not normal in many ways, but to tell me it’s not normal to recall dreams is making my anxiety a lot worse than in already is.
Anyone who personally knows me, knows I sleep like crap. I’m up and down constantly, shifting frequently to relieve my achy back, shoulders, and hips – in between sitting up to check if hubby is still breathing. Let’s not forget the once a night bathroom trip if I don’t go right before I hit the pillow.
When I talk about dream recall, I can tell you very vivid dreams from 10+ years ago. Even some dreams I used to have as a child. I always thought this is common. Apparently not.
So …. I have a new appointment for a neurology sleep consult. My cardiologist ordered it because I was diagnosed with severe obstructive sleep apnea, and he thinks my machine isn’t the correct one, which is screwing with my sleep. I can’t stress enough how important it is to have the correct machine. I cannot exhale with it on. And now, I have issues with breathing through my nose due to year round allergies from hell. So, I need a full face mask, and a machine that has auto titration.
But that’s not why I’m being referred to a neurologist. I guess there are several specialists who treat spleep apnea. I used to see a pulmonary specialist. But now, it’s time to see a neurologist. The cardiologist didn’t like my description of my nightly dreams. UGH! Just leave me alone. I’m sick of all the ‘ologists’. My regular doctor and cardiologist are quite enough, thank you very much.
AND, I’M BROKE – IN THE RED. …no thanks to Obama care and the insane shit it allows the medical industry to get away with. But I’m not here to get political.
On with last night’s dreams. Which is what I set out to do in the first place, until my husband started his routine I have a medical anomaly for a wife spiel. …. I wonder why I’m depressed…
Last night’s dream recall is pretty borken (damn you, Bloggess! I actually typed that by accident).
The first part I remember is wandering some random streets in downtown Niagara Falls, New York. I was on Pine Ave., but it didn’t look like Pine Ave. HOWEVER, Pine Ave. always looks the same in my dreams – filled with cool shops for the tourists. I passed a nice book store (there’s an adult bookstore on 19th street, just off Pine Ave FOR REAL). Then there was a women’s clothing store. They didn’t have anything nice that fit me, so I left.
Next was a pizzeria. It was closed. Of course! Because I was hungry, dammit! So, I headed to the tattoo place. And of course I didn’t have enough money for the tattoo I want, so I tried bargaining with a female artist, and she threw me out. Crap.
Then I was suddenly back in college, getting yelled at for skipping classes – something I did a lot of in my last semester, because hell, I was graduating with a 3.4 average anyways, so I could get away with it! I think I have that dream frequently because it’s my guilty conscience working on me.
I swear some of the things I dream are my sins coming back to haunt me.
The next dreams I had happened when I went back to sleep after my son got on the bus. I TOLD you I do that! It’s cold AF outside. Do you honestly think I’m going to just bounce around my house at 7 o’clock in the morning, doing housework?
Anyways, I think I’m suffering from screen overload. Or maybe over-stimulation, period.
I was at some variety show that was being televised. There were a bunch of YouTubers there, including some of my favorites. And of course, I got challenged to a 7 second sake challenge. I’m thinking this dream happened because I had sake the other day, and I managed to hold on for about 4 seconds. Our chef took delight in watching the rest dribble into my cleavage. Bastard…
In the end, I won the damn challenge in my dream, and I got to sit with these two squishy dorks for the rest of the show.
…only to be recorded by them for their next video… YES, I was doing stupid things for the rest of my dream – all for that damn 7 second challenge.
And now, if you’ll excuse me, I need some nutrition, caffeine, and a lobotomy.