This Is Sad

In the weight loss world, every day is a struggle.  Between life and triggers, losing each pound seems like pulling teeth.  And it feels like an eternity for some.

In a recent post on a social media group – which is run and monitored by administrators – I asked about mukbang, and if anyone has had success with appetite suppression via watching mukbang videos.  An hour or so ago, my post was approved, and someone commented.  But I didn’t get to see the comment because I was busy.  However, it was in my notifications.

Any regular social media user knows how notifications work.

To my surprise, my post was removed within minutes of being approved.  While I have not questioned the administrator of the group, I can only imagine what the comment was on my post, and the reason why the post was removed.

I can understand that videos about eating can be triggering, but don’t the rules of the internet state that if you don’t like something, keep scrolling?  I wasn’t trying to trigger anyone.  I was simply trying to suggest that maybe watching eating videos can help curb the appetite.  But I guess I’m more wrong than right, since my post was removed.  But that’s fine.  No big deal.

Meanwhile, I’ll continue to eat vicariously through mukbang videos, without actually eating … because I’m not easily triggered by food, and have self control… not that I’m criticizing anyone.  I’m just saying.

Rant over.

Autocomplete Is Making Me Angry

To relax a bit before diving into some house work, I’m playing Google Feud, and I don’t like my crappy score.  I’m not racking up very many points, and now all the answers about tattoos are pissing me off.

This post was originally a huge rant, but now I’m like why bother?  And then 90% of this post got deleted.  People will always be judgemental, and there’s nothing I can do about it.  So, I’ll continue with my day, have some more coffee, and listen to my huge random Spotify playlist.

Think you know the answers?  Try it out!  Google Feud is an actual game, based on people’s searches.  Have fun!  Time for me to find a happy place while I clean.


I Hate Doing This

But it’s a necessary evil ….. once in a while.  Not all the time like I used to do, because then it makes my site trashy.  But it’s necessary, because if I don’t, I might explode.  And since my daughter gets all over my case about ranting on social media, I need to do it here.  Maybe I’ll send Kevin out for some ice cream.  Or maybe I’ll have a little something else after dinner.  I think I deserve a tiny bit today, since I’ve done without for four days.

Have you ever been in a situation where an accidental bird comes along, and craps on your good day with something unexpected?  And then you’re like
but you don’t really say anything because the damn bird doesn’t realize you’ve been wondering about that unexpected thing all along?  I know this doesn’t really make any sense, but roll with it.  I need to be vague for the sake of something very important.

I really want to use a gif of Prince (RIP) for what my next reaction was once I realized what is going on, but I’m doing my best to stay away from anything copyrighted.  So I’ll use this one instead, because if I don’t, I might explode.

And because my eyes hurt from rolling them, I took to clenching my jaws to the point of a headache, and now I have heartburn on top of suspicion and stew.  If you don’t know what stew is …

BUT, it’s all probably for no reason, and I’m just being paranoid … and pms’ing.  But I needed to get it out before I break down and cry, which is way worse than my current mood.  When I cry, I fall into an endless pit until things smooth over, and then I’m all better and giggly again.

Holy shit!  That’s the perfect gif!  I need that shirt!  It’s totally me.

Now I must go before this gets any worse, then I’m cringing in a year or two when I look back on this ridiculous post.  This is depression and anxiety at their worst.

This Is Why We Can’t Have Nice Things

Why must people ruin things by sexualizing everything?  Hmm?  It’s getting annoying – and gross.  Is there anything sacred left?  I’m not trying to kink shame, but can’t we just go back to keeping things general in the sex department?  Pretty soon, it’ll be illegal to even make sounds with your mouth, according to the new ban on ASMR in China. Continue reading